3 weeks

Greetings. 

I just want to say that I'm still alive. 

So i've been spending life in Jogja for about 3 weeks and its been good, though. I'm having not much of difficulties, but lots of baper. I have several times of feeling lonely, missing Citra, Tika, Okky, Dini, Amaze. Agak lebay but thats the truth though.Secara yaaa I'd never leave Malang for such a long time, with no family at all, and i used to have a lot of friends that is easy to hang out with, which  I haven't met any friends like that. yet. Oh and also i had a day of feeling gloomy after one of my friend visiting me here, and then in the next morning i escorted him to the airport, and I went home alone after that. Everything went grey in that day. I just knew that I have the drama side of mine. What a shame. But then that proves me i'm not that lempeng like what my friend once told me. 

I found how awesome it is to live far from your parents. of course, in a good reasons. You will get to see how a thing could be very precious which you didn't realize it before. Example : home made food. Me, for now, i am craving those foods really bad. I miss how my mom didn't put any MSG nor salt on it. I miss the taste of sincerity on those foods. And also I miss how i only open the door from my room, and then running down the stairs, and voila, foods are served. Lol. It really matters for me, though. And what I really adore by living here is that i can manage my own life. I decided (almost) everything by my own without having pressure from "anyone". It's like I've given a trust, which is new for me, and it means a lot. But still it means that you have a big responsibility of your own life, its whether youre gonna ruin your life by your own decision or youre going to make your dreams happening by those trust of your parents.

Apart from that, Jogja is a nice place to live. You wont meet any unfriendly things here. OH WELL, EXCEPT MOST OF JOGJA'S DRIVER. They're frankly wont budge with any other driver or pedestrians which is kind of rude for me. They're obedient with any of traffic rules, though. But then you will find friendly society, friendly weather (although i like Malang's weather more but here is acceptable), friendly food with friendly price too, friendly traffic and so on. And also how I found people here are sincere, humble and modesty, which is new for me since I live in city that most of the citizen (especially the teenager one) have such a "lifestyle" that wanting everything have to be kekinian.

And that makes me proud of calling Jogja as my second home. 

The unanswered 'pesan & kesan'

It’s 6:08 am and I’m currently in Jakarta.

I just woke up and then I thought it might be nice if I wrote this post. Actually this is too much to say that it may looks like a last impression for them before my leaving, and yes, the word ‘leaving’ is too exaggerating. And creepy in the same time, its like this is my last message for them before I cant met them forever. Like a testament. I WONT DIE. At least for now. I MEAAANNN ERRR WELL YES I WILL BE DEAD BUT LATER, LIKE A MILLION YEARS LATER. Amin ya Allah.

I’m not regretting my leaving and I don’t think that this past year is a waste. I got memories. I got friends. Bunch of friends. And friend isn’t a waste. I am grateful that I met friends telling me that how you climb a mountain is more important than reaching the top. Friend that telling me not to be afraid to be bold sometimes if it’s needed. Friend that telling me to be a wanderer. A friend telling me that age isn’t everything, but personality is. Friend that telling me not to get fooled easily. Friend who told me to care, don’t just pretend to. Friend that telling me, this is your life, not your parent’s life, you have the right to choose, bcs its for your future not theirs. Friend that telling me you got to control your own life, not to be controlled by other person. Friend that telling me to become who you say you always will. Friend that telling me to become a freedom fighter. Time management. Collegality. How to done practical reports by one night. Etc. Things that you wont get if you only read it on books. Even how to drive properly (and also not to get people/other car steals your way). 

You guys amazed me. A lot.

Stay AMAZE. 

Michele Buble - Home

Greetings.

Caution: the title isn't related with what im going to write down below

So i want to show you what i wrote a couple months ago but i haven't had a chance to post it yet. Here it is :

A year has passed, I think, and I don’t have exactly the reason why I didn’t post for almost a year by now. Anyway here I am trying to catch things up. I am not a highschool student anymore, I had graduated. I’m taking veterinary medicine major, and it’s on university of Brawijaya. Exactly. I failed on my attempt to escape from this lovely city. Poor me. I stuck in this city for the next 4 years, might be more. And there are my friends, waving their hands away from me, from the city that I’ve been craved to wander about.

But then I found an unbelievably awesome colleague which makes me not really regretting of my failure. They are randomly funny, rascal, weird, freak, but that makes me feel alive. Some of my friends from high school that I met a couple weeks ago said that I looked different. Seriously. I was a quiet & boring girl back then. I didn’t do much of stupid things, I barely talked if that wasn’t so important, laughing with a quiet kind of laugh, rarely issued a joke, never do bullying nor being bullied, which is now it seems flipped. But well, bully in a good way, not a kind of bully like hair pulling or throwing leftovers to your meal, no of course not.

Grateful things I stayed on Malang is, I don’t have to feel homesick. It’s terrible, they said. Even sometimes I was wondering how it feels like, singing Michele Buble – Home wholeheartedly.

But then i got accepted at gadjah mada university (which is located in Yogyakarta. it takes about 8 hours by train from Malang) with the same major as before, yash, veterinary medicine. I can't thank Allah enough for his blessed. Alhamdulillah. 

And the reality hits me. 

im going to live 337 kilometers apart from my parents. i have a responsibility of taking care myself. doing laundry or kind of things in dormitory life. yay. Nana bukan anak rumahan lagi. and yes, it seems that i'm going to sing Michele Buble's song wholeheartedly. I CANT BE MORE EXCITED. 

wish me luck.

xoxo