Its 3 am and can't sleep.

A friend of mine who will be going to Holland this month was asking me "how was it, Na, when youre about to go to jogja?" And i answered "well i was just fine and happy." Totally a big lie ever. Well. Its true that i was happy back then, when I got the news that im accepted in ugm and moved out from malang. And my friends gave me surprise, big suprise for me bcs i'd never expect a surprise. I thought with my leaving theyre just going to say such words as "im gonna miss you Na" or "see you on top Na" or anything related. So it hits me. I'm leaving the city that ive been lived here for almost my entire life that full of caring&loving people, to the place that is hundreds kilometers away, with no one for me to lean on. "What if this what if that what if what if" is whole of question that filled my head. So thats why I cried a river HAHA.

And theen here I am. Im doing fine, so far. I have a good life enough in jogja, having friends to lean on, and met people that is caring. Luckily i moved to the city which its people are mostly kindhearted so I feel like I am being honoured living in here. And that makes Jogja feels like home.

So i think its normal and understandable for having a fear or feeling soo nervous when youre about to wander apalagi going abroad  ya. But dont let that nervous feeling depress you so much and be a barrier for you to do something. YOLO. You only live once. Learned our lessons through the tears. Do anything (that is positive) for ur own life that you will remember bcs you surely will leave this world behind. Well i quoted from avicii's The Night sih karena itu lagi "lagu aku banget". Bye

Merantau itu ngga semuanya tentang rasa feeling free doing anything without parents control. Justru karena jauh dari orang tua itu, lebih merasa punya tanggung jawab lebih. Merantau is whether youre going to ruin&harm or make a success of yourself. 

Merantaulah
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Much love

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